Cortty

No, he's pathetic. I'm not trusting him after this. If he really gives any kind of sh*t about this he'll talk to me within the next week. If not, I'm telling him off.

Still haven't talked to him. And you know something? He's always talking about how I'm his best friend, but he doesn't even attempt to talk to me when he's online or invisible. It's making me second guess EVERYTHING between me and him.

For those of you who don't know about this, which I'm sure is all of you (I forgot who I told), I've been trying to get a program called Communities in School (CIS) up at MY school. We're having a lot of issues with people's household life, and I decided it's time for SOMEONE to come and talk to them. I can't do it alone. I've been talking to people that volunteer/work there, I've talked to my counselor and now, here's the starting point I've been looking for! Day one of my journey has led me to an email from my principle... Now see, he was my principle when I was in elementary. Now, he's my principle during my senior year. He's a really slow talker, and I'm a fast talker. I can't keep up with his words, and he can't understand mine. This might be difficult. Nervous feelings don't help me slow down when I talk, either. I will be absolutely crushed if this doesn't fall through during my senior year... But I'll be damned if it doesn't fall through at all. This isn't about college applications and what will make me look good. This isn't about gaining some time of knowledge about what I'll be dealing with in my future. This is about the people I've grown up with, the people I'll be leaving behind when I graduate, the people that have always looked up to me. Even the people who haven't! Parents give up on their kids too easily, or blame the school when they fail. Guess what, IT'S NOT THE SCHOOL'S FAULT! If it were the teachers would be fired. I'm more worried about it not working. I was even thinking of volunteering for them. I would love to be a mentor for a kid in a random school! I would be getting some good skills for my future psychology job! Also, I would be helping a kid stay in school or just keep their head up. I'm excited for this, again. I had a period where I just didn't think that it was going to work. But, I keep pushing for it! Anyways, that's about all I can think of to talk about it. It's been pretty slow so far. Hopefully, it picks up!

And because you're going to be my COUSIN IN LAW!

Well, he's not in Texas...

Lol, I'm not even going to answer that.

I'm not married (yet). I celebrate the boyfriend/girlfriend anniversaries.

I was talking to Schyler about how angry I've been getting at things lately, and he asked if I needed a hug. I said I needed my grandmother (Nanny). He told me to move on. I mean seriously?! Who does that?! It's barely been a whole year since she's passed. I'm still grieving over her, and he damn well knows that! When his grandfather died, I NEVER told him to move on. I told him it'll get better, and to always remember him. What the hell does he do with me?! "You're acting like a child." "Cortney, move on." I'll move the f**k on when I feel like it. In the mean time why don't you go suck a fat one and choke on it?! It's common knowledge unless you want to send somebody into a rage, you don't say that! Oh, and hallelujah, my anniversary is today! What do I get, a couple of shut ups, some ignores on phone calls, and a text that says "I'm going to bed, night." HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO YOU, TOO! Oh, and here's a punch in the face! Sometimes, I wish people would just be silent when they talked so I didn't hear a god damn thing coming out of there mouth.