eva

don't worry about it, it's over.

sometimes you just need to give up. i'm thinking about doing that right now.

trusting judgment and letting someone run YOUR room the way THEY feel it should be run are different things. if i wanted you to run it your way, i would let you. i want it run my way, hence it is MY ROOM. it's not my fault that you're power hungry.

men who pms are RIDICULOUS learn to get over yourself. you cannot always have your way and just because something does not appear to be the best for you DOES NOT mean it's not the best, it just means you can't see how it is good.

this is not english.

that's what i was thinking of...

what a monkey.

this thing is like a rumor machine.

the way it works at my school, you swipe your card, and then you get whatever you want-- there's a salad bar, 2 soups (always a vegetarian option and one that has meat) a "homestyle" section, the "red hot chef" a pizza section, the grill, and the vegetarian/vegan room, oh and desserts. basically, even if it's all shit, you can get as much of it as you want, so usually you can find something to eat. we also have a menu up for the week, so if it's really terrible at dinner, you can go to the coffee shop, which also contains a subway, a grill, and a wrap place, and you can trade a meal for a meal there. it's not a bad deal. i'll still say there are days when it's just gross, but that's life, it's not like a parent never made some new experimental dish that wasn't too hot, right? you just have to deal with it.

last month i went down to health services to experience my SECOND most embarrassing experience there. the housecleaning lady decided to mop.. and not put up the wet floor sign, so as i went to go talk to the nurse, i slipped and fell on my rear end, resulting on a second trip later in the day to recheck my blood pressure...

exactly. had she mentioned she was bringing someone else to begin with, it would've been different. i'm also pretty sure by the lots of people or whatever she meant she'd invited a lot more people.. who i was going to cart around town all day. NO THANKS. as for the sex thing, she sure isn't getting any. she's one of those "eeew boys!" type of people, but not because she's against sex, because she has absolutely NO EXPERIENCE, and i think before she judges what anyone else is doing, she should know what she's talking about. the drugs/alcohol issue is sort of similar, only that's where she's really being hypocritical. she was "dating" this guy last year through about 2 weeks ago. he smoked a lot of pot, and she knew that from the start, but she was set on making him quit. she, on the other hand, drinks like a fish. when we got back to school this year, all of a sudden she goes "i'm going straight edge." i'm pretty sure this was so she wouldn't seem quite so hypocritical when telling her boyfriend not to smoke while she was getting drunk. well, every time she was around alcohol the first couple weeks, she always ended up having a bit, and last weekend we went to a party, and she got ridiculously drunk, danced on a refrigerator, and played strip poker. it just really bothers me that people separate alcohol from other drugs and assume it's better because it's legal once you're a certain age. alcohol is a drug. BUT if you're not going to tell someone to do something, at least have a good reason. i understand that people have problems with drugs, but her real only reason that she didn't want him smoking pot was because it meant he wouldn't be around her because she refused to hang out with him if he was high. she also always assumes that (if she knows someone's smoked pot) any time that person says something a little weird, it's because he or she is high. once i texted her and asked if she wrote this weird thing on my door because i really had no clue who did it, and the next time i saw her, she kept going "you were probably high!" which i was not. talk about annoying.

great friends are definitely NOT those who seem to be very interested in your friendship when they want to go somewhere.. and you have a car.. i have this one friend who is always trying to get me to drive her places.. like chicago.. (a good 3 1/2 hour drive from our school, and not a drive i want to make in my not toooo reliable car).. and then she gets angry when i say no! on thursday, she got online (i think this was her way of ignoring the nudging thought in her mind that what she was doing was wrong) and asked me if i could take her to the mall on saturday because she needed to go bra shopping. i was fine with that, thinking it would be the two of us shopping. of course, as i say yes, she says "oh, my friend molly from cross country wants to go too, that's okay, right?" no, it wasn't, mainly because i knew she had already made plans with this girl and just expected me to drive, but i'd already said yes. so today, i'd already decided i wasn't taking them. why would i want to drive two people to the mall so they could go shopping without me? i run into her around 12:30. "so, you're still taking us, right?" "actually, i have too much to do.." (not really a lie, a friend had borrowed my detergent, so i really needed to catch up on laundry today). "UGH I HAD SO MANY PEOPLE DEPENDING ON YOU." "maybe you shouldn't depend on me to drive you everywhere." and she walked away. i guess that i wouldn't really have a problem with it if it were something actually important she wanted a ride to, or if she actually want ed to do something with me there, but i know she's only asking me because i have the car to get her there. what she doesn't realize is that i don't have the money she does to be wasting on gas to drive her all over the place. what i really don't understand is why she doesn't have a car here. she has the money and the car at home, she just didn't bring it. that's not the only problem i am having with her. she's been really hypocritical about behavior.. like alcohol/drugs (they're really the same thing, which is why she's really bothering me with that issue) and sex.. and i'm just getting really sick of it. it's like, until you can be a perfect angel, lay off everyone else. there's a lot more i could say which is exactly why i will stop now!

i've gotten pretty good at the fasting thing since i've been doing it since way before i was supposed to, but i'm not sure i will allow myself to drink afterward again..

because it was yom kippur so i ate dinner and dinner only that plus alcohol makes for very drunk

soooo fasting all day + drinking = NOT GOOD. in fact, for eva it equals falling over, but being too drunk to realize that she hurt her foot, so what did she do? she walked 15 minutes to a party. then she danced for 2 hours. then she walked home to find herself with a bloody toe and a swollen ankle. YUMMY! http://i80.photobucket.com/albums/j192/eva-lution/DSC03829.jpg ps Wolfie is a lazy bum =(